I just got done journaling, my hand is in a major cramp, but now I have an itch to blog. I have decided that typing is just so much more enjoyable than hand writing things out, ha. I hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. Today was one of those days that I feel like I woke up about 5 days ago. Has anyone ever felt like that, or am I the only crazy one around? :)
I woke up with swollen eyes, and beat red eye beds, under my eyes. My throat seemed like it was the size of a penny and I was not sure how I was even going to last a few hours. The tricky part was, I was responsible for many things at church today, including leading worship. Luckily, I woke up a few hours before I had to arrive at the church, so I was able to take a long shower, drink a few cups of coffee, and try to conquer what this was that was really bringing me down. Due to the Lord's grace, I was able to pull of a quite successful Sunday. The music was powerful, the audience seemed to be more receptive than they have been in months, and the spirit within the room was like light and free. On the inside I thought I was slowly dying, but the Lord really allowed me to gain strength and energy to deliver. I came home and ate Tuna Casserole that mom had made. I know what you are thinking, tuna??? I hate tuna! But I love mama's tuna casserole, weird huh? I ate lunch and headed to my bed. I was so tired and weak that when I remembered that I hadn't turn my light off in my room, there was no convincing myself to get up and turn it off. So, I took a 3 hour nap, in my Sunday best, with all of the lights on. Yep- I was tired. I woke up and immediately started some bath water. I am a true believer in a nice hot bath. I took all of my make up off, picked up my book, and took a bath until the water turned cold. ha.
I am happy to report that I am feeling much better, and I am being taught lately that being healthy is something to never ever ever take for granted. I am not the type to get sick very often, but MY GOODNESS! 2011 has really taken a toll on my health meter! I think it is a combination of sinus and allergies, and I just can't seem to ever fully get rid of it. grr.
Tomorrow is President's Day. I am rejoicing because my mom does not have school! This is such a wonderful thing for mom. We don't have any plans, which is perfect! I had one of my "oh great, I need a job PRONTO" fits today. I laid in my bed after I woke up, and just thought to myself over and over what I can do this week to become proactive at finding a good job. Daddy said something in his sermon today that really made me think. He gave 4 disciplines that we need to practice as Christians, and one of them was the Discipline of Silence. Allow God to help you replace striving with silence. Whoa. Thanks for making me feel completely uncomfortable, dad. But how true is that? I strive on striving. haha. Silence, even in small conversations, sometimes makes me want to save the moment and fill it with something. God has definitely been teaching me, and I am learning, slowly, about silence and solitude. Savoring each moment, and not filling our lives with busyness.
Well, that's it for now...
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