Tomorrow morning we will wake up early and head to Memphis to catch our flight back home. I think the Lord knew that today was our last full day here, and I had been PRAYING for some decent weather to be able to sit outside in. Right now it is a little overcast, but not very humid! Praise the Lord! I am sitting out on the porch, there is a nice breeze and droid says it is only 82 degress. That is NICE for what we have been having around here. So thank you Lord for providing me with a last day that I get to sit outside and enjoy your beautiful creation. I have my coffee in one hand and the Word in the other. Beautiful TN thunder above and beautiful green trees in front of me. Perfection :) I haven’t been feeling very well today. I am having tummy issues and I am so tired. I think I am sad that I will be leaving. I am ready to get home, and get some things done, but I just LOVE being here with grama and papa. They are SO good to all of us. My heart is definitely full and not sure what to think about leaving. Today at lunch my grama asked me when I would see her again. I don’t think I will see them until late October. UGH! I don’t like the sound of that at ALL! I have spent three weeks with them and now I won’t be able to see them for so long! It is so funny how when you get around all of your family, you just feel little again. I haven’t had one thought about money, or being responsible at all. I love just waking up and going with a flow. I enjoy being older and more responsible for things, but every once in a while it is such a good feeling to not think about reality. I haven’t had to spend money on gas and food, YAY! :) ha. Being here has also given me lots of time to think. I have been asked a lot lately about what I am going to do when I am done in December. Some parts of me feel so worthless because I really don’t know. Yes, I have ideas, but I really don’t have any set plans yet. But the other side is that I know I have an entire semester to figure it out. So if you are reading this :
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On Sunday we were in Virginia and in church the pastor was talking about really living out the Christian faith and calling that the Lord has given us. A lot of times, as Christians, we have a lot of knowledge but we don’t always put it into action. And a lot of the times, we don’t see the needs around us, in order to live out our faith. We are called to be a blessing to those around us, to refocus our lives and be missionaries for Him. I have been thinking about this all week. I get so caught up in being “busy” that I wonder how many times I miss opportunities. The pastor talked about leaving no margins in our lives for others. Whoa. I was convicted. I think back to my life at cbu, and how I would have classes and meetings from morning til midnight. That is a perfect example of no margins. Yet when I have time, I seem to always find ways to fill them. Well, I looked at my schedule for this coming semester and I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. WHAT? I might have some margins??? Oh no! Well I have found myself thanking the Lord this week for providing margins! Instead of trying to find something else to be involved in, I am excited to allow the Lord to fill margins in my life. Margins that will allow me to be a blessing. Margins that will allow me to obey the call of Christ.
Well I am going to go enjoy my last evening in my favorite place.
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