Paige Aleah

Let me set the scene for you: I have been in my pajamas, ready for bed since about 8 PM tonight. I cannot believe how exhausted I have been throughout the past few days. Those little kindies can take a lot out of you! I was all tucked into my bed, ready to go to sleep, and I grabbed my phone and starting catching up on a few blogs that I follow. I was reading a friends blog that I haven't read in a while, and she had just posted a very lengthy post of God's faithfulness in her life over the past few years. Immediately, I was hooked. I was so inspired by her post that I got out of bed, got my computer, and now I am here writing to you.  This entire day I told myself that I was going to go to bed early, because every morning I regret staying up late :)


I am not posting about God's faithfulness in my life, although that is a subject that I could probably write a book on, seeing His faithfulness in more ways than I can count. Instead, I want to share my heart with you all about seasons of life. I have always heard that there are "seasons of life" that people go through depending on their age, their status, their walk with the Lord, and all of those kinds of things. The definition of this kind of season goes beyond what the weather feels like outside. It seems as though I could admit that I have been through many seasons. Seasons such as junior high (awkward season!), becoming a woman, high school, moving away and going to college, seasons of being completely confident, and seasons of feeling completely inept. Seasons of friendships and seasons of loneliness. But now, here I am. I am a college graduate, no one ever talks about this season.  If I had to define my current "season", I would define is just like this:  I have an appreciation for my family that I have never had in my entire life, my prayer life with the Lord is stronger than it has ever been, I am working in a position that I would have never thought (in a million years!) that I would be doing, I have a love for Kindergarteners :), I am living with my grandparents and doing my best to serve and love them in every way that I can think of, I am leading worship at church, I am very sure about some things in my future yet unsure how they are all going to work together to create a new season, I am in a season of waiting but assured that incredible things are just around the corner, I am in a season of serving, trusting, and submitting to those that are around me.... whew! That was a very long sentence ! :)   No one ever told me that a season of life could have so many things compiled into one.  However, I am being molded and refined like never before, and I have full confidence and trust in the Lord that His mighty hand is over our every breath, and He knows exactly what step we are going to take next.  And just when I think that I have it all figured out, the Lord shows me this verse:


The mind of man plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps.
Proverbs 16:9






I tend to go back and read old blog posts that I wrote, dating back to a few years ago. It never, ever fails- I always laugh! I read the posts and I think "Paige, just TRUST in the Lord and enjoy where you are!"  My task oriented ways sometime are a major weakness of mine, because I tend to not fully embrace the season in which the Lord has me. Why should I embrace this season, if in my mind there is an ever BETTER one waiting? Well, that is not entirely true. Okay, it is very easy for me to write on here that I need to engulf myself in the place where the Lord has me, do my very best, and not even think about the next season. But, unlike some of you, that is an extremely difficult concept for me. I am a future thinker, and a task-doer. Get things done, and always think of how we can be better. It took me a while to realize this about myself, and frankly, I am still realizing it.  It has taken major measures, like Papa having a stroke (for example) for me to realize that I need to really capture moments that are right in front of me, instead of thinking about future moments. 
So, if you see me around any time soon, make sure to remind me to embrace where the Lord has me, and that it is completely for His perfect purpose- I give you full permission to tell me :)  I have moments where I lose sight of that very truth in Proverbs 16. 
I love you all, thank you for allowing me to share and sticking with me. I need to go to bed, the kindies await me in the morning!