I shouldn't be on here.

My life is seriously one big ball of chaos.

I have a to-do list that seems to be never ending. in fact, it seems to be growing by the minute.

There is exactly 8 days of school left.

I leave for AZ on Thursday morning and return Sunday night.

Unfortunately/ I wish we weren't even going to AZ. 

I am so thankful I get to go home. but I really have about a zillion

other things that I should be doing.

I have 2 more research papers to complete.

A schedule that doesn't fit choir in it for next semester.

Applications for graduation ( I know, already)

And I have no idea where I am going or what I am doing this summer.

Everything is just up in the air.

I know I need to be trusting in the Lord more than ever/ but it is getting down to the wire.

ah.

whew. I feel better now that I vented a little. 

:)

This morning I went to my nutrition class. The lecture was on pregnancy.

Needless to say, it made my motherly desires just expand. 

But to be honest, it was such an enjoyable lecture. To see how perfect the Lord made

a woman's body to be able to carry a child.

It was beautiful :)

I have learned that though I am an extrovert, I need time alone.

After the pregnancy talk (ha) I got in my car and went to do some errands.

I had to pick up my UCO dress and go to the grocery store.

I truly enjoyed strolling down the grocery isles all alone, just thinking and praying.

I know, I am weird at times.

Anyway, it was therapeutic. 

I tend to get to caught up in lists and activities, that sometimes I am not calm and quiet.

Church was incredible yesterday. It was on your relationship with the Lord and

walking daily with him. Taking something small and insignificant and making it great for HIS glory.

After church, I went home and made a list of all of my goals.

(Yes, I love lists. ha)

It was incredible to see what my life COULD be. And even more incredible 

to know that with the strength and guidance of the Lord, that list can become reality.

Psalms 31: 1-5

"In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge;
       let me never be put to shame;
       deliver me in your righteousness.

 ² Turn your ear to me,

       come quickly to my rescue;

       be my rock of refuge,

       a strong fortress to save me.

 ³ Since you are my rock and my fortress,

       for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

 ⁴ Free me from the trap that is set for me,

       for you are my refuge.

 ⁵ Into your hands I commit my spirit;

       redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth"